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No time for a gentle rain, no time for my watch and chain
Well, well... my bridesmaid V just got engaged and defended her thesis successfully. I guess it's transition time for someone else now too. I'm not surprised at the good news, of course; V is one of those people for whom the one-word description would be smooth, although she does work very hard and deserves every (what's a good metric for creaminess?) of that smoothness.
I do feel slightly uneasy sometimes... judging from books, at least, what looks like happy endings all around me is more likely to be the bright beginning we all look back on wistfully when we're 45 and divorced. Sigh... that whole "life goes on" thing.
I've been quiet because I'm scrambling. Wherever I go, that feels like the most important thing I could possibly be doing, and I'm happy until I have to make a transition--which means I'm a few minutes late for work because I was straightening up one more thing at home, resentful at having to leave work at 6:00 because I'm trying to catch up there too, hanging out at TKD too long after class because I so desperately need to stretch, then being pissed off that it's bedtime because I so wanted to get more done around the house. Oh yeah, then I oversleep because I'm exhausted and am having bad dreams that I have to do two weeks in jail.
I'm sure I should be breathing deeply or something--yippee, one more thing I bet I'm not doing right. Shut up. I'm trying. :( And now, back to the code that awaits...
I do feel slightly uneasy sometimes... judging from books, at least, what looks like happy endings all around me is more likely to be the bright beginning we all look back on wistfully when we're 45 and divorced. Sigh... that whole "life goes on" thing.
I've been quiet because I'm scrambling. Wherever I go, that feels like the most important thing I could possibly be doing, and I'm happy until I have to make a transition--which means I'm a few minutes late for work because I was straightening up one more thing at home, resentful at having to leave work at 6:00 because I'm trying to catch up there too, hanging out at TKD too long after class because I so desperately need to stretch, then being pissed off that it's bedtime because I so wanted to get more done around the house. Oh yeah, then I oversleep because I'm exhausted and am having bad dreams that I have to do two weeks in jail.
I'm sure I should be breathing deeply or something--yippee, one more thing I bet I'm not doing right. Shut up. I'm trying. :( And now, back to the code that awaits...