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Tommyknockers
I have odd dreams. Last night I had a long weird dream about several cafes, all of which had blueberry pie, and a very attractive black boy who was somehow my special friend, but not really in an erotic way. For at least part of this dream I was younger than I am now (maybe 16?), and in one of the cafes I was with my mom and Sarah as well as this boy.
The night before, I had a nasty physics nightmare worthy almost of HLM, who (when he was younger) used to wake up in cold sweats thinking that the laws of physics were unstable and the universe was collapsing. I dreamed I was somehow falling through all the laws of physics, from the stuff governing the big stuff to the stuff governing the small stuff. I think the falling started out as a voluntary jump, and I was in this solar system watching gravity whip the little satellites around. It was pretty. I fell... down? smaller?... so slowly at first, the planets receding above me somehow. But so quickly I was down in the tiny stuff, the subatomic stuff, and it was all dark. It lasted a long time. I was falling with someone else, a friend, but not anyone I really know, and I could feel forces around us but couldn't see anything. I knew that when we fell all the way in and were as small as anything could be, we would die, and we didn't know how long that would be. I was wishing we hadn't jumped, or fallen so fast.
The condo feels clean, empty, quiet and spacious with HLM gone. The cats don't seem to miss him yet, and neither do I really. It takes a couple of days. It helps to know he's fine, and that he found the copy of this book I planted in his duffel before he left. How did couples survive before telephones and email?
The night before, I had a nasty physics nightmare worthy almost of HLM, who (when he was younger) used to wake up in cold sweats thinking that the laws of physics were unstable and the universe was collapsing. I dreamed I was somehow falling through all the laws of physics, from the stuff governing the big stuff to the stuff governing the small stuff. I think the falling started out as a voluntary jump, and I was in this solar system watching gravity whip the little satellites around. It was pretty. I fell... down? smaller?... so slowly at first, the planets receding above me somehow. But so quickly I was down in the tiny stuff, the subatomic stuff, and it was all dark. It lasted a long time. I was falling with someone else, a friend, but not anyone I really know, and I could feel forces around us but couldn't see anything. I knew that when we fell all the way in and were as small as anything could be, we would die, and we didn't know how long that would be. I was wishing we hadn't jumped, or fallen so fast.
The condo feels clean, empty, quiet and spacious with HLM gone. The cats don't seem to miss him yet, and neither do I really. It takes a couple of days. It helps to know he's fine, and that he found the copy of this book I planted in his duffel before he left. How did couples survive before telephones and email?