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Bike, unhappy
My lovely bicycle has at last gone to a new home. The woman who bought it was delighted at finding exactly this bike, which was like an old one of hers that had gotten stolen. She was on-time for the pickup and happy that I never lost the spare key. I felt a twinge as she drove away, and I also felt good about having my stuff entirely out of the basement. Nothing down there is solely mine anymore.
That last thing is good, because I'm feeling overwhelmed just by the unit I live in. I spent a random half-hour cleaning up on Monday night, and I don't know how that was possible, given how much I try to tidy over the weekend. Cats are only a part of it. :-/
Work and scaling and burnout continue to be Things. I'm basically miserable because my people are unhappy at a new large-scale project, and they want me to protect them more, while my director is unhappy with me for trying to protect them too much.
I did get my performance review back at some point. I was somewhat curious whether I could try for promotion to director next cycle, and the answer is that I cannot. That's fine with me since 3 cycles from now has been Plan A for some time now, and I'm more interested in not burning out. I think from here it's largely a question of org size... along with delegating the last few useful things that I ever do, apparently. Hmmm, blech.
One thing I did last week is space out all my 1:1 meetings with indirect reports a little more, so that I can more cleanly handle meeting with one sub-team per week. Some of them will dislike this decision, but I'm always making people unhappy now so that'll be par for the course.
That last thing is good, because I'm feeling overwhelmed just by the unit I live in. I spent a random half-hour cleaning up on Monday night, and I don't know how that was possible, given how much I try to tidy over the weekend. Cats are only a part of it. :-/
Work and scaling and burnout continue to be Things. I'm basically miserable because my people are unhappy at a new large-scale project, and they want me to protect them more, while my director is unhappy with me for trying to protect them too much.
I did get my performance review back at some point. I was somewhat curious whether I could try for promotion to director next cycle, and the answer is that I cannot. That's fine with me since 3 cycles from now has been Plan A for some time now, and I'm more interested in not burning out. I think from here it's largely a question of org size... along with delegating the last few useful things that I ever do, apparently. Hmmm, blech.
One thing I did last week is space out all my 1:1 meetings with indirect reports a little more, so that I can more cleanly handle meeting with one sub-team per week. Some of them will dislike this decision, but I'm always making people unhappy now so that'll be par for the course.