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Old, young, no more handstands, wow this is a fragmented post
An awesome article about being childfree. I love the ones by older people. Unlike people my age, the author can pull in supporting evidence from "when I was widowed at 50" and so forth. I still want what I've wanted since the day I first decided on my "precious pearl" in my first Dale Carnegie class... I want my mother-in-law to tell me she understands my decision. But I might be waiting a while.
Handstand month is coming to an end at yoga, which would be sad except that the next pose of the month is Hanumanasana (splits)! Yay! Sadly, I'll be missing the 2-hr special class on it because I had a "you know, I really should sometimes prioritize my friends over my selfish little workout routine" moment and told B I'd go to her Cinco de Mayo party... a good thing maybe, but I did it without realizing that May 5 would be the night of the master class. I pick the damnedest times to decide I care about other people.
As HLM's birthday and my birthday are both coming up, I thought it would be fun to list some of the things I worried about at 18 that, at 28, I don't anymore:
Tawdry, huh? I admit, I look back and I feel rather icky, and that's all without considering the soap operas I would head into the year I was 19. :) I admit, there's also a list of things I worry about at 28 that I didn't at 18, but when I started to list them I started getting all worried, so I stopped. Let's just end on the note of: Whoever thinks getting older sucks is managing to forget a lot about being young.
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heisenbug is now my friend! This news may surprise some of you who may have thought we were already friends, but we couldn't be friends until I had cleaned up my past a little bit. ;) He's actually written most of a really great post as of today, but hasn't posted it yet. Maybe soon.
Handstand month is coming to an end at yoga, which would be sad except that the next pose of the month is Hanumanasana (splits)! Yay! Sadly, I'll be missing the 2-hr special class on it because I had a "you know, I really should sometimes prioritize my friends over my selfish little workout routine" moment and told B I'd go to her Cinco de Mayo party... a good thing maybe, but I did it without realizing that May 5 would be the night of the master class. I pick the damnedest times to decide I care about other people.
As HLM's birthday and my birthday are both coming up, I thought it would be fun to list some of the things I worried about at 18 that, at 28, I don't anymore:
- Getting pregnant
- I signed my letter "love" and that other person didn't, or vice versa, and OH NO that must signify something and I need to pick it all apart and overanalyze now
- Whether my GPA would be high enough to get me into grad school
- Mike wanting kids and me not wanting kids (Mike cheating on me, Mike staying up all night, Mike never liking the clothes I wore, me not really being myself around Mike, Mike blah blah wah wah)
- Stupid co-op politics and how nobody seemed to like me after I became treasurer of the living group
- My parents finding out that I was having sex
- How to get enough sleep (any sleep) during the week
Tawdry, huh? I admit, I look back and I feel rather icky, and that's all without considering the soap operas I would head into the year I was 19. :) I admit, there's also a list of things I worry about at 28 that I didn't at 18, but when I started to list them I started getting all worried, so I stopped. Let's just end on the note of: Whoever thinks getting older sucks is managing to forget a lot about being young.
Lastly...
heisenbug is now my friend! This news may surprise some of you who may have thought we were already friends, but we couldn't be friends until I had cleaned up my past a little bit. ;) He's actually written most of a really great post as of today, but hasn't posted it yet. Maybe soon.
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I want her to actually realize that my choice is valid, and right for me (and for her son) and all that stuff. It'll take a while longer, but... I can wait.
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My parents found out when I was 17 that I lost my virginity. :P They got over it. :P ;) Funny thing was, my mom found like long strands of black hair in the shower and was like, "What's this?" I finally admitted that it was my girlfriend's and she was starting to get upset and blurted out, "In my house?!" To which I calmly responded, "Would you rather I get caught out in the middle of no where with my drawers down? I can take my chances. Some little parking lot somewhere." She looked about to say something, bit her tongue and seemed to accept it after that. :)
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My parents made me sign a paper that said they'd stop paying for MIT if they ever found out I was acting unChristian. Thus, they found out I was having sex the day after I found out for sure that I'd secured independent funding for grad school. Oddly, by then they weren't fanatic anymore and didn't even disown me or anything.... sigh.