ENOUGH!!! I have had... exactly... enough.

[flexagon]

So, my tae kwon do teacher had us all do our form today. (Today was the last day to sign up for the currently happenin' test, btw, but I wasn't really hoping too much after the way things have been going, so that's incidental). I'm positive that I did the form better than my friend L, who's testing, but he really wants me to work on my basic moves. So, he made fun of my punches, and when I asked for clarification he said I should just go do them in front of the mirror. I told him that I had done that and also worked on them with J, a black belt student, and I would really like to know what's still wrong. He more or less just shook his head and went on to the next group. And I went over to the mirror and didn't see anything wrong.

All I have to say is what the fucking fuck!!!??? This person is supposed to be a TEACHER, which means that when a student has a correctible problem you TELL THEM WHAT IT IS and you TEACH them. Teachers are SUPPOSED TO FUCKING TEACH! I came so close to going ballistic in there, which is a) really not the right thing to do ettiquette-wise and b) not physically such a hot idea when you are in fact a green belt and dreaming of smacking a good one to a sixth degree black belt. Sigh. I am still so livid though. I'm not a quitter but I'll be damned if I'm going to stick around for endless months of this shit. I'm going to try a couple of things. I'm going to try going to the Boston school where the real head honcho (8th degree black) teaches--he's a bit more patient--and I'm going to try getting help individually from a couple of other teachers. And I'm going to do what they say. But I'm giving them two months, or two testing sessions anyway. If I don' t get my blue stripe in that time frame, I'm outta there, because at that point it will be the teachers and not me who aren' t doing their thing. Oh, and if I do get it I'm still going to freeze my membership for a month, just to get this SHIT out of my HEAD. I have a little head and it's just about full now.

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Yuck - how frustrating

[bluechromis.livejournal.com]

Sounds like he's a lousy teacher. I think you are right that going after a 6th degree black belt is not likely to be a good plan though, haha. Definitely get a second opinion...they should in the LEAST be able to tell you what's wrong, and hopefully they'll just tell you you should test :)

Re: Yuck - how frustrating

[flexagon]

Yeah, he's actually a decent teacher, for the most part, but not the most patient of men. I guess when something seems perfectly obvious to you, it can be hard to be patient with dense types who just don't get it. M is going to ask him what's up for me, since he agrees that I should at least know what the problem is. And I still plan to get help from all the other teachers too.

Note that I have at least moved on from the "I totally suck" phase of this to the "they totally suck" phase. Improvement, maybe!