flexagon: (racing-turtle)
flexagon ([personal profile] flexagon) wrote2016-01-17 10:05 pm

A weekend away

Just came back from a weekend event that, two years ago, was super mindblowing and also pretty disruptive. This time it was chill, still super fun, and stabilizing. It's funny the things that can ground a person.

Which is to say that I mostly just slept a lot and lazed around talking a lot, both with [livejournal.com profile] norwoodbridge, and I guess my face leaked a bit during one of the conversations but mostly I feel like things are really going to be okay. Some things have clarified, and others I've simply let go of -- they are someone else's to clarify, and for reals not my problem. And some of my sadder thoughts turned out to be misconceptions. We actually had a really good talk about 12 days ago (and then a weird one 10 days ago that tossed me slightly back to confused territory), but this settling feeling feels a lot more final than that one did. Hopefully it is so.

Am I vaguebooking? So be it, then, I am vaguebooking. I'm a bit tipsy, and there are rules to follow. I will say that doing a bit of circus today was lovely, and tomorrow being a work holiday is going to enable some much-needed (and also stabilizing) catching up on things. I'm looking forward to simply being at home for a while, and sleeping a lot again tonight.

[identity profile] a-kosmos.livejournal.com 2016-01-20 06:53 am (UTC)(link)
I hope that this means that you are getting to a place in the universe that feels better. It sucks to feel like you are slipping slowly over the edge of a cliff.