Here is my new favorite quote from the week:
...by Paulo Coelho, who apparently is a Brazilian lyricist and novelist who tweets. Here are some more quotes for me to go read, though I don't know if any of them will capture the double-edged nature of living with a brain quite as well as the one above.
Yesterday was a Very Poly Day that could have turned Very Slutty but did not: brunch with Quarte (the first time I'd seen him in weeks), and dinner with the cute little 30yo and her fiance and![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
heisenbug. At the same time, norwoodbridge was having an afternoon-through-overnight date #3 with his new girlfriend, a fine thing to distract myself from. I'd been feeling morose all week about the capacity of human beings to meet each others' needs to begin with, and kind of thought I might end things with Quarte. Really, with my other stuff as it is I can't see him very often (often enough to do any good?) while also having it be maintainable. But he said he'd rather see me less often than throw in the towel, and he was nice to me when I maybe dripped a tear or two on his shirt over the stupidness of being human in general. I guess making me brunch and giving me a backrub was also him being nice to me. So, he gets to stay in rotation. :-) I'm not sure what else happened, except that everyone still seems to like each other and today everyone I've spoken to is catching up on chores.
I haven't really felt awake and alert for a week or so now. Burnout? Maybe the brownies I'm baking will help with that feeling.
At every moment of our lives, we all have one foot in a fairy tale and the other in the abyss.
...by Paulo Coelho, who apparently is a Brazilian lyricist and novelist who tweets. Here are some more quotes for me to go read, though I don't know if any of them will capture the double-edged nature of living with a brain quite as well as the one above.
Yesterday was a Very Poly Day that could have turned Very Slutty but did not: brunch with Quarte (the first time I'd seen him in weeks), and dinner with the cute little 30yo and her fiance and
heisenbug. At the same time, norwoodbridge was having an afternoon-through-overnight date #3 with his new girlfriend, a fine thing to distract myself from. I'd been feeling morose all week about the capacity of human beings to meet each others' needs to begin with, and kind of thought I might end things with Quarte. Really, with my other stuff as it is I can't see him very often (often enough to do any good?) while also having it be maintainable. But he said he'd rather see me less often than throw in the towel, and he was nice to me when I maybe dripped a tear or two on his shirt over the stupidness of being human in general. I guess making me brunch and giving me a backrub was also him being nice to me. So, he gets to stay in rotation. :-) I'm not sure what else happened, except that everyone still seems to like each other and today everyone I've spoken to is catching up on chores. I haven't really felt awake and alert for a week or so now. Burnout? Maybe the brownies I'm baking will help with that feeling.
