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Vacation time! PoGo, Christmas, musings.
Dec. 22nd, 2018 06:32 pmHi friends. It happened, I got through the week and now is holiday/vacation time. I even had a moderately chill Friday, and sent email to my team that was all "thanks for a surprisingly big 2018, feel free to head out early today for the long weekend". And oh, little team, how not-little you are. How close you came to doubling in size this year, when I wasn't looking. How strange that you will grow again.
I got some reassurances from Lion on those brain-weasels from last time, and that was good. My primary love language is definitely touch, but I need words occasionally too... and I'm often hesitant to ask for them, due to old relationship situations that are pretty far in the past where asking for reassurance usually got someone mad at me. It's pretty marvelous when someone just says "I can see why that would make you feel shaky" and "Yes, I do value you, I absolutely do intend to keep seeing you" without getting all Big Drama about it. And the brain-weasels go back underground.
I hit Level 40 in Pokemon Go on Wednesday, which in some ways is an anti-achievement but so what? No more progress bar for me; this is the max level.
And while it isn't over yet, I'm starting to think back, gently, about the year. Parts of it certainly sucked, but my career progress was kind of phenomenal (thanks to Director Lady, who is basically doing this to me), and I did some Artsy Things with my body like develop two acro acts and a photoshoot. No big injuries. Back walkovers. And Nala is still here, stilllll here.
I get why people refrain from doing Christmas, but I just don't find it difficult to put up a tree, and I like the lights and the gifts. Maybe I'll stop someday, if the associations with Christianity get stronger to the point where they annoy me? But ritual is nice, and I'm doing it my way now and that's fine. (Well, almost. I looked today for glass ornaments in the shape of dildos, condoms, dumbbells or kettlebells, but didn't find anything, and that's too bad.)
I got some reassurances from Lion on those brain-weasels from last time, and that was good. My primary love language is definitely touch, but I need words occasionally too... and I'm often hesitant to ask for them, due to old relationship situations that are pretty far in the past where asking for reassurance usually got someone mad at me. It's pretty marvelous when someone just says "I can see why that would make you feel shaky" and "Yes, I do value you, I absolutely do intend to keep seeing you" without getting all Big Drama about it. And the brain-weasels go back underground.
I hit Level 40 in Pokemon Go on Wednesday, which in some ways is an anti-achievement but so what? No more progress bar for me; this is the max level.
And while it isn't over yet, I'm starting to think back, gently, about the year. Parts of it certainly sucked, but my career progress was kind of phenomenal (thanks to Director Lady, who is basically doing this to me), and I did some Artsy Things with my body like develop two acro acts and a photoshoot. No big injuries. Back walkovers. And Nala is still here, stilllll here.
I get why people refrain from doing Christmas, but I just don't find it difficult to put up a tree, and I like the lights and the gifts. Maybe I'll stop someday, if the associations with Christianity get stronger to the point where they annoy me? But ritual is nice, and I'm doing it my way now and that's fine. (Well, almost. I looked today for glass ornaments in the shape of dildos, condoms, dumbbells or kettlebells, but didn't find anything, and that's too bad.)
