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More reorgs, more sociopathy, new glasses
Aug. 18th, 2024 10:18 amFinished my deep dive on Patric Gagne (nee Cagle) by listening to the Armchair Experts podcast episode with her. Despite the controversy there are no holes in her story; the PhD is real and her stories in all podcasts/interviews/articles are consistent with her memoir. I'm getting closer to being able to write a book review. Continuing to get a lot out of this idea of being a little slower to learn (or just not feeling) some of the social emotions, especially when they are about feeling attachment to very large groups, or rely on several steps of indirection. I test quite low on all the tests for sociopathic tendencies due to my not assuming I'm more important than anyone else, but I think I share some of that slowness.
In particular, it sheds light on one of my very worst teenage memories, which was exactly on this topic. I mean it was literally a discussion about how I was learning one of those social emotions (intellectual understanding first, before I could learn to feel it, which is actually normal). So that is a good puzzle piece to fall into place for me. And also tells me something about my dad, who feels some of the most abstract social emotions the most acutely.
So anyway, I got reorged again this week, on Thursday with no warning, and there are really not enough expletives for all this churn. I know the larger organization very well, and can say this for sure: we're in the best possible place at the moment, a place I would personally have put us five months ago, but with severe danger of falling down the hierarchy into the worst possible place. Thank god my new skip-level (who is also my new VP) is someone I've known for a long time and who trusts me as a source of information. I think I will have the chance at a super blunt 1:1 in which I will try to save my director from an otherwise rotten fate. But my director is losing the game of thrones right now; between the reorg two weeks ago and this one, he's shed literally the majority of his L7+ people. Not good, not good. And I don't know whether he sees the danger. I've been brought into this VP before though, and I know he has a pattern of bringing smaller orgs in at top level and then placing them further down once he understands them better. He's a kind and smart man, but he has to do his job and I know that.
I am so fascinated by the ongoing antitrust cases, and getting interested the technical side of my newer team's new stuff, and I also want out of this flailing mess.
Aside from that, it was a quieter week with more time at home. I try to do some small thing for my home life every day even when I'm busy, which this week meant picking up my new glasses and my repaired sewing machine. Just now I installed a magnetic door stop in my office door. Small things, but they push back against entropy and keep me aware that my usual schedule isn't everything.
I have to fly to the mothership in California tomorrow, and my squirrel is a hot mess because of a giant work deliverable due on Tuesday at its own high-pressure workplace. So next week will be pretty blah. My only hope is that JD "postmenopausal females" Vance continues to make amusing headlines.
In particular, it sheds light on one of my very worst teenage memories, which was exactly on this topic. I mean it was literally a discussion about how I was learning one of those social emotions (intellectual understanding first, before I could learn to feel it, which is actually normal). So that is a good puzzle piece to fall into place for me. And also tells me something about my dad, who feels some of the most abstract social emotions the most acutely.
So anyway, I got reorged again this week, on Thursday with no warning, and there are really not enough expletives for all this churn. I know the larger organization very well, and can say this for sure: we're in the best possible place at the moment, a place I would personally have put us five months ago, but with severe danger of falling down the hierarchy into the worst possible place. Thank god my new skip-level (who is also my new VP) is someone I've known for a long time and who trusts me as a source of information. I think I will have the chance at a super blunt 1:1 in which I will try to save my director from an otherwise rotten fate. But my director is losing the game of thrones right now; between the reorg two weeks ago and this one, he's shed literally the majority of his L7+ people. Not good, not good. And I don't know whether he sees the danger. I've been brought into this VP before though, and I know he has a pattern of bringing smaller orgs in at top level and then placing them further down once he understands them better. He's a kind and smart man, but he has to do his job and I know that.
I am so fascinated by the ongoing antitrust cases, and getting interested the technical side of my newer team's new stuff, and I also want out of this flailing mess.
Aside from that, it was a quieter week with more time at home. I try to do some small thing for my home life every day even when I'm busy, which this week meant picking up my new glasses and my repaired sewing machine. Just now I installed a magnetic door stop in my office door. Small things, but they push back against entropy and keep me aware that my usual schedule isn't everything.
I have to fly to the mothership in California tomorrow, and my squirrel is a hot mess because of a giant work deliverable due on Tuesday at its own high-pressure workplace. So next week will be pretty blah. My only hope is that JD "postmenopausal females" Vance continues to make amusing headlines.
