All peopled out
Aug. 25th, 2018 08:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
flexagonA few things added up to Too Much in the 2nd half of this week... my best tech leads are still out (and dealing with escalations from both their teams is too much), my people who are up for promotion are not putting their damn packets together, there was a 70% predictable (indeed, 70% predicted!) poly kerfluffle over who gets to go to a restaurant with me first, and we had 4+ houseguests starting on Thursday. Oh, and my calendar was packed with 1:1s.
The problem is pretty obvious when I lay it out like that: too much people dealing, and a total lack of alone time. Apparently that affects my sleep now -- especially waking up early/stressed whether I want to or not, which used to never happen and has now happened three days in a row.
So yesterday I stayed home alone (bug doesn't count) and got an enormous to-do list done... and felt twitchy around people even when I briefly went to my favorite local bookstore, so I bought a book quickly and GTFOed. Today I'm definitely not going to open studio, for similar reasons. I hung out with Lion for about 90 minutes and had brunch, but he still counts as a partial person so that had to end. Next up: solitary workout, hurray.
Adventures in cleaning up the back of our house, which I'm doing in order to stop the neighbors from squabbling about parking, continue. Found some old broken crap, and some old rusted cans of... probably paint? And half a bucket of what I think is old roofing tar, covered by a rusted metal lid. I don't know who would leave metal cans of hazardous waste out to rust in the rain for years, or why, but my new theory is that people just don't like doing things. It sits rather uncomfortably with my knowledge that people also love to challenge themselves and accomplish things, but it sits, regardless.
Point of interest: our houseguests (who Norwood referred to as "housefish" because of that thing guests and fish have in common) included a 16-year-old girl and a 14-year-old boy who got along beautifully well. They liked each other, preferred to sleep near each other so they could talk, supported and hung out with each other. I've honestly never seen anything like it from sibling teenagers. I grew up in a not-so-functional family, and so I never assumed that any sibling I had would necessarily be an ally or on my side, and that's even before worrying about the sibling's effect on our financial life. But a sibling like that might have been worth having. Twinge, twinge.
The problem is pretty obvious when I lay it out like that: too much people dealing, and a total lack of alone time. Apparently that affects my sleep now -- especially waking up early/stressed whether I want to or not, which used to never happen and has now happened three days in a row.
So yesterday I stayed home alone (bug doesn't count) and got an enormous to-do list done... and felt twitchy around people even when I briefly went to my favorite local bookstore, so I bought a book quickly and GTFOed. Today I'm definitely not going to open studio, for similar reasons. I hung out with Lion for about 90 minutes and had brunch, but he still counts as a partial person so that had to end. Next up: solitary workout, hurray.
Adventures in cleaning up the back of our house, which I'm doing in order to stop the neighbors from squabbling about parking, continue. Found some old broken crap, and some old rusted cans of... probably paint? And half a bucket of what I think is old roofing tar, covered by a rusted metal lid. I don't know who would leave metal cans of hazardous waste out to rust in the rain for years, or why, but my new theory is that people just don't like doing things. It sits rather uncomfortably with my knowledge that people also love to challenge themselves and accomplish things, but it sits, regardless.
Point of interest: our houseguests (who Norwood referred to as "housefish" because of that thing guests and fish have in common) included a 16-year-old girl and a 14-year-old boy who got along beautifully well. They liked each other, preferred to sleep near each other so they could talk, supported and hung out with each other. I've honestly never seen anything like it from sibling teenagers. I grew up in a not-so-functional family, and so I never assumed that any sibling I had would necessarily be an ally or on my side, and that's even before worrying about the sibling's effect on our financial life. But a sibling like that might have been worth having. Twinge, twinge.
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Date: 2018-08-27 01:56 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-08-27 05:25 pm (UTC)i hope you un-over-people soon.
those sound like some exceptional and unusual teen siblings. i like my sisters quite a bit, but i don't think we were ever quite like that.
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Date: 2018-08-27 10:57 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-08-30 08:46 pm (UTC)I think you saw a bit of this at the last party we overlapped, where I really wanted to enjoy conversation with you and your sweeties but the physical act of being seated in the middle of the room and all the people+conversations around us made it nigh impossible.
At least I've learned not to (overtly) hiss and claw at people when I get into those states, though I can still be unpleasantly terse and prone to vanishing.
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Date: 2018-09-05 09:14 pm (UTC)