Disjointed & random (written last night)
Sep. 22nd, 2020 07:14 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
flexagonImpression from promo committee: people at my corporate level are a bunch of gatekeeping jerks. But this does not bring despair, because I'm used to it. Not my first rodeo. It's true that if other committees are acting like mine, then my own direct report who's up for this level won't stand a chance in hell, and this also does not bring despair -- sometimes a person writes a packet to play rather than to win, you know?
I organized a group gift for the Winemaker, and it got delivered and he liked it. Yay.
I have had a weird rash on my back for weeks that is finally, slowly going away with diphenhydramine. I don't think it was hives, and I dislike medical mysteries of this sort, but it doesn't seem worth going to the doctor now that it's fading, either.
Interesting writing on burnout here ("burnout is caused by resentment"... or is it?) and here (Emily Nagoski on the internal monitor, learned helplessness, and getting out of the pit of despair). This quote from the first one may be worth passing on: " Burnout is caused when you repeatedly make large amounts of sacrifice and or effort into high-risk problems that fail. It's the result of a negative prediction error in the nucleus accumbens. You effectively condition your brain to associate work with failure."
That rings true, although I don't think flat-out failure is really required for burnout. Just the monitor constantly tripping is enough.
I organized a group gift for the Winemaker, and it got delivered and he liked it. Yay.
I have had a weird rash on my back for weeks that is finally, slowly going away with diphenhydramine. I don't think it was hives, and I dislike medical mysteries of this sort, but it doesn't seem worth going to the doctor now that it's fading, either.
Interesting writing on burnout here ("burnout is caused by resentment"... or is it?) and here (Emily Nagoski on the internal monitor, learned helplessness, and getting out of the pit of despair). This quote from the first one may be worth passing on: " Burnout is caused when you repeatedly make large amounts of sacrifice and or effort into high-risk problems that fail. It's the result of a negative prediction error in the nucleus accumbens. You effectively condition your brain to associate work with failure."
That rings true, although I don't think flat-out failure is really required for burnout. Just the monitor constantly tripping is enough.
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Date: 2020-09-23 09:41 pm (UTC)Yes, I agree. I'm currently feeling burnout at The New Job™, because the last two weeks my team landed critical fixes at the 11th hour. They landed them. They shipped. The customer is happy (well, less mad). But I'm exhausted, and the relaxation period between shipping one thing and the next landing on us was effectively nonexistent. (Okay, pandemic and back-to-school aren't helping, either.)
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Date: 2020-09-24 11:31 am (UTC)