Sleep comes like sunset in Brazil
Mar. 28th, 2006 07:28 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
flexagonOkay... it looks like I'll live. That's the sickest I've been for a long time, but my energy suddenly came back to me at 2:30 PM on Saturday (yes, that is freakishly specific, isn't it?). I feel fine now -- the only thing that remains is that I get tired very suddenly in the evenings. I'll be going along fine, and then CRASH. Whatever time it is becomes bedtime.
I dutifully went back to the shrink yesterday and she gave me an OCD test. It was rather nice to go down the long, long list of bizarre things that I have not the slightest obsession or compulsion about. I had to answer yes for "ritualized eating patterns in the past" though. When I was a kid I used to take my piece of pizza and nibble around the last piece of pepperoni until I had the perfect round bite to finish off with... I used to alternate bites of all the things on my plate, trying to make them all finish at the same time... and I had a whoooole ritual around bacon and eggs that takes a little too long to describe, but it too involved saving the very best bite for last.
I'm assuming that even totally normal people score something on this test. As HLM points out, doesn't every kid do that thing with Oreos where you break it apart and scrape out the white stuff first?
Then she raised my Prozac dose to 10mg/day, which is still awfully low. Phooey. Come on, lady! After reading Listening to Prozac over the weekend I'm actually pretty hopeful about this, but it usually takes more than that. I wish we could start with a high dose to see if it will work for me at all, and then lower it to find a threshold, but apparently that isn' t what they teach them in shrink school.
I dutifully went back to the shrink yesterday and she gave me an OCD test. It was rather nice to go down the long, long list of bizarre things that I have not the slightest obsession or compulsion about. I had to answer yes for "ritualized eating patterns in the past" though. When I was a kid I used to take my piece of pizza and nibble around the last piece of pepperoni until I had the perfect round bite to finish off with... I used to alternate bites of all the things on my plate, trying to make them all finish at the same time... and I had a whoooole ritual around bacon and eggs that takes a little too long to describe, but it too involved saving the very best bite for last.
I'm assuming that even totally normal people score something on this test. As HLM points out, doesn't every kid do that thing with Oreos where you break it apart and scrape out the white stuff first?
Then she raised my Prozac dose to 10mg/day, which is still awfully low. Phooey. Come on, lady! After reading Listening to Prozac over the weekend I'm actually pretty hopeful about this, but it usually takes more than that. I wish we could start with a high dose to see if it will work for me at all, and then lower it to find a threshold, but apparently that isn' t what they teach them in shrink school.
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Date: 2006-03-28 12:39 pm (UTC)i had a really bad reaction to an upped dose of prozac (hi suicidal ideation...) so the slowly raised dosage is probably a good idea, although i certainly understand your impatience.
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Date: 2006-03-29 12:04 pm (UTC)Sorry you had that reaction! My dad did too, but he was suicidal/depressed to begin with so I'm hoping that doesn't say much about me.