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Item one: just back from vacation, my first meeting was a one-on-one with my visiting boss's boss's boss. We spent time talking about my grandboss (her subordinate), and what do I do but start crying. Sigh. I was more startled than embarrassed -- I figure that high-level people, especially those with a sympathetic demeanor, get cried at all the time and they can handle it. But she shook a weird realization out of me, which is that I really felt more secure on the job a year ago than I feel now. I think some of the autonomy I had is disappearing now that I have a more involved grandboss (the last one was pretty hands-off), and that feels bad, and I have spent emotional energy being scared and defensive instead of figuring out how I can make a more involved grandboss work to my advantage.
Item two: back to the gym today, as my slow recovery from last week's feverish diarrhea-ish sleepiness continues. I'd missed 1.5 straddle workouts and assumed I'd be stiff, creaky, and painful today. Instead my body was all "THIS IS MY JAM, WOOHOO!" and relaxed happily into the floor.
Item two: back to the gym today, as my slow recovery from last week's feverish diarrhea-ish sleepiness continues. I'd missed 1.5 straddle workouts and assumed I'd be stiff, creaky, and painful today. Instead my body was all "THIS IS MY JAM, WOOHOO!" and relaxed happily into the floor.
