Scumbag brain

Blech. I have a cold, and lying in bed seems to mean that I can't breathe and I can't stop crying. I was really pretty sleepy before I started to bawl my eyes out with the too-familiar-lately formless grief thing, but Jesus fucking Christ. I just give up. I cancelled my handstand lesson already and I'm pretty sure I'm out sick tomorrow, so it's a fine time to do vacation planning and maybe actually figure out my Democratic primary vote.

ETA: did those things, read about gravitational waves, fell asleep in front of the fireplace at 3:15.