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I got pretty discouraged after handstand class today because, honestly, I am going through just huge paradigm shifts about how handstands work and nothing feels the same anymore. Not only did I totally break my jump-up, it's making me feel like I've been wasting my time until this year.
If I wasn't learning this then what the hell was I doing? Preparing my tissues for the load, I guess.
( Three insights. I really want to draw this out as a comic, but for now you get words. )
So now some of this is very actionable and has given me a whole new set of cues to try, but everything feels unfamiliar. Stuff I slacked on before suddenly feels intensely critical, and I have no idea if I can put these new understandings together into a functioning body movement. Like: what the hell have I been doing all this time? I've never in my life, until today, focused on trying to keep my scapulae wide during a jump-up! But when I do, the freedom is uncontrollable. I've fixed something critical in my understanding and completely destroyed my intuition.
Sigh.
If I wasn't learning this then what the hell was I doing? Preparing my tissues for the load, I guess.
( Three insights. I really want to draw this out as a comic, but for now you get words. )
So now some of this is very actionable and has given me a whole new set of cues to try, but everything feels unfamiliar. Stuff I slacked on before suddenly feels intensely critical, and I have no idea if I can put these new understandings together into a functioning body movement. Like: what the hell have I been doing all this time? I've never in my life, until today, focused on trying to keep my scapulae wide during a jump-up! But when I do, the freedom is uncontrollable. I've fixed something critical in my understanding and completely destroyed my intuition.
Sigh.
