flexagon | Oh hey, the future exists and stuff

I am okay again, as of yesterday. With some hilarious results as I suddenly realized that the future actually EXISTED and I had to PLAN for things, and oops, I hadn't done that because nothing seemed real. Until suddenly it did.

There are plenty of things ahead yet, and work's a scramble (with a reorganization that happened above me, and trying to hire people below me, while trying to learn a new pipeline), but the world has basically snapped back to normal. I'm not going to scrape together the story for you, since trying to summarize it (even mentally) makes me weirdly sad and threatens to pull me back into the bad zone -- I mean, all causes aside, it's really sad to be as sad as I was, for as long as I was. Yeesh. I don't understand. There were causes, yes, but also I feel like I was just broken for a week there. No, no, I'd rather splash around in my little puddle of relief and wait to get some temporal distance, while catching up on freaking work because that sure didn't go away while I was barely holding shit together.

So this is just to push the sad post down a little bit. Soon, I will tell you about handstands and other things.