I am a well-calibrated tool
Sep. 24th, 2018 08:05 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
flexagon(written Sunday, failed to post)
Another nasty week at work as the Process grinds along; spent like 7 hours in big meetings discussing people's performance scores. No scores were changed in the meetings for folks in my org, except the one I had planned to push upward and did, and that's a victory; mustn't get jaded about that. Promotion cases are looking good too. You'd think I would worry about my own score, but, eh... I'm pretty sure I'm on a plateau that's about a mile wide. As my manager points out, folks at our level are supposed to do things on scales much longer than 6 months, so if we wrote down only our level-appropriate accomplishments we'd each be doing about two things per cycle. As it happens, this is exactly right, I did do two real things this cycle: set up a new Chicago team for success (and helped them), and made one more person into a manager. Good enough, maybe.
In deference to the workload, my personal life was of course as smooth as a new jar of peanut bu... wait, it doesn't work that way? Damn! So, right, there was dumb escalating poly drama, continuing through Wednesday night. At that point Lioness wrote to me suggesting that she and I talk directly instead of each of us just talking to Lion and getting more confused, and that solved things with alacrity. I slept better after that. One thought: it was certainly an interesting trial run on how things will go if everything explodes with Lion, namely I will run into him everywhere whether I want to or not. Work, the subway, circus school. Rrrrrrgh. Best to keep that one working, I think.
My desultory attempts at self-care involved an unusual amount of walking in the newly autumnal weather. And cooking, which is weird for me. I cooked stuff on Saturday that got three pans dirty, and cooked more today (two pans, which I forgot to wash before leaving for Norwood's, damn it). I haven't done any work, and part of me says "surveying at least the big incoming things is on your to-do list" and the other part says "take two full days off, and listen to that other voice on the train on Monday morning".
Another nasty week at work as the Process grinds along; spent like 7 hours in big meetings discussing people's performance scores. No scores were changed in the meetings for folks in my org, except the one I had planned to push upward and did, and that's a victory; mustn't get jaded about that. Promotion cases are looking good too. You'd think I would worry about my own score, but, eh... I'm pretty sure I'm on a plateau that's about a mile wide. As my manager points out, folks at our level are supposed to do things on scales much longer than 6 months, so if we wrote down only our level-appropriate accomplishments we'd each be doing about two things per cycle. As it happens, this is exactly right, I did do two real things this cycle: set up a new Chicago team for success (and helped them), and made one more person into a manager. Good enough, maybe.
In deference to the workload, my personal life was of course as smooth as a new jar of peanut bu... wait, it doesn't work that way? Damn! So, right, there was dumb escalating poly drama, continuing through Wednesday night. At that point Lioness wrote to me suggesting that she and I talk directly instead of each of us just talking to Lion and getting more confused, and that solved things with alacrity. I slept better after that. One thought: it was certainly an interesting trial run on how things will go if everything explodes with Lion, namely I will run into him everywhere whether I want to or not. Work, the subway, circus school. Rrrrrrgh. Best to keep that one working, I think.
My desultory attempts at self-care involved an unusual amount of walking in the newly autumnal weather. And cooking, which is weird for me. I cooked stuff on Saturday that got three pans dirty, and cooked more today (two pans, which I forgot to wash before leaving for Norwood's, damn it). I haven't done any work, and part of me says "surveying at least the big incoming things is on your to-do list" and the other part says "take two full days off, and listen to that other voice on the train on Monday morning".
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Date: 2018-09-25 02:00 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-09-26 02:56 am (UTC)I don't know what came over me... I think I was just trying to keep myself away from keyboards and screens.