Feelings coming up

[flexagon]

I forgot to say last time that I found a really convenient way to clean up storage in my Google account, at https://one.google.com/storage/management, and cleaned out several GB. That should get me away from storage warnings for a few years. I'd like to do a good decrufting of Drive as well.

This week was different and had more free time in it, though the time certainly filled up. We saw Dune, my first time in a theater since (at least) early 2020, and I was pleased to correctly call that the Fremen costumes were done by Demobaza, which is now offering a Dune collection. I sorted my junk shelf and tossed some crap -- discovered I have a stupid number of USB cables -- and bought a small weight rack to organize our handful of dumbbells in our home gym. We saw a friend who's constantly depressed and trapped in a situation he hates, and that was a downer. I called it quits on Echoes of the Eye when the gameplay changed style halfway through, and just looked up videos to see the new endings and understand all the lore.

My cold has faded but now my lady bits are hurting. Not likely to be serious, but I'm annoyed at the sheer variability of being human. I'm also... hmm... just having a lot of feelings come up, now that I'm relaxing some. Super emotional. I've had a few slightly panicky flashbacks to my burnout episode in the summer, when I think about work, and some very overwhelmed feelings about Helios and the way his whole household seems to have accepted me. It is a level of kindness that is exceptionally hard to adapt to. Which I know is a good problem to have. But, look, can I tell you about my morning at his place? I wandered up uncertainly from my basement room while Helios was out getting breakfast sandwiches; his wife said "good morning, sweetie", his dog leaped onto the couch to snuggle with me, and his kid came by and rested her chin on my head by way of greeting before running off to do kid things. After breakfast all those others went away to a park, and he folded me up on the couch and read some of his favorite children's books to me. Yeah... yeah I did totally lose it and cry all over him.

I continue to help them with house things, and the night before he and Perse and I had gone around the living room figuring out where to hang various pieces of their art. So I suppose I am earning my keep and have been adopted? A funny feeling. I have my own home, but have always loved having more than one place where I can feel that I belong.

Anyway. Back to staring at the wall and feeling emotions so that hopefully I can metabolize them. Tomorrow I finish my streak of non-work "maintenance" appointments with a mammogram and a checkin with my financial advisor, so that's a less good day for it.

Comments

[elbren]

that's totally adorable. yay for cozy household affection, even away from home!

[ckd]

I was surprised by the tone shift in EotE, but found the new puzzles and approaches enough of a positive to counter the frustrating stealth sections. I can certainly see why it would be a gamebreaker.

Hooray for feeling at home and welcomed!

[flexagon]

If you finished EotE, I recommend this video for putting all the new lore in order and reviewing the story. It's 20 minutes, but I found it satisfying:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GvIeyZbnI5s

[randysmith]

I was wondering if you were doing EotE. I'm part way through it, but haven't hit a tone shift yet. We'll see what I do when I do hit it :-}.

I'm really happy for the family/community acceptance you're getting with your new relationship; that sounds really sweet and wonderful.

[flexagon]

EotE: You'll know when you hit the tone shift, because physics and the mechanics and everything will be different. I found it interesting enough to explore a bit, but not an engrossing environment for actual game-playing and puzzle-solving and putting time into it, if that makes sense.

Relationship: thank you! It is sweet and wonderful and, you know, absolutely surreal as a followup to my last thing. This one is in the open and the whole family likes me, and when some other friends came to get the house tour, Helios brazenly told them the date room was for him and me. *blink blink*

[silentq]

Oof yeah the emotional processing for good stuff can be surprising. Yay for more belonging. :-)
I totally got sucked in by York's sale and got some storage racks too, as well as filling in some holes in my dumbbell weights. Jumping by 10lbs at a time was less than ideal, so now I'll be able to progress in 5lb increments.

[flexagon]

Ooh, excellent on the York sale. My dumbbell collection is a little weird and I actually want more of the tiny vinyl-covered weights that don't fit on this rack, if anything (for things like trap-3 raises). I managed to resist. (Bought some sliders from Amazon, though, after you reminded me to think about what I was missing... :)

[silentq]

I added https://yorkbarbell.com/product/large-vinyl-dumbbell-stand/ to my order as it was cheap enough to try out for my small weights (not sure why it's marked large though). I'm still using towel scraps as sliders. :-)

[flexagon]

Haha! My sliders have been either an old tank top or else pieces I cut off the bug's old jeans. But I hate using them without shoes because my feet are delicate flowers, so I wanted the sliders where one side is foam. Ten bucks... we'll see!

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B00OYRW4UE?th=1

Re: Feelings coming up

[cos]

Really nice anecdote!

P.S. Your storage cleanup link is broken, text is right but URL it links to isn't.

Re: Feelings coming up

[flexagon]

Whups, fixed that!

And yes. For all that there's been Community Drama this year, these people have been very very sweet to me.