Meh

[flexagon]

• Another week of work in which something was due literally every day. More promo discussions on Tuesday even got me behind on my workouts, which I'd been trying hard to avoid. What I do is so abstract, it's nearly miraculous that it can feel so urgent... we're deluded together, all of us in my entire megacorp.


• The tattoo hurt all week, too (pain, not itching). For 2-3 days it would sting every time fabric touched it, which was no fun, and then it shifted to burning which was also no fun. Day 6 was the first day I could semi-forget about it. Now, on day 7, it's peeling in big black flakes, which is fun, but also has a mild infection... sigh, I will deal with it.


• I finished up the audiobook of We Have Always Been Here, which was super sloppy SF, bashed it solidly on Goodreads, and read a lot of The Paper Menagerie with a lot more pleasure -- it reminds me of Ted Chiang, except for the one bad out-of-nowhere torture scene (which I skipped as much as I feasibly could). I have just three more books to go, meaning I'll not only finish with my shelf before Christmas but I'll probably finish before Halloween. I feel oddly stupid about this going better than my other projects... like, at this point in my life it's not impressive that I can read... even though the actual challenge was (and is) to read a bunch of stuff I didn't always 100% feel like reading, and clear a backlog. Anyway, progress on anything is nice. My plan is to pick/buy one book at a time for a while after this.


• I took a half-day table massage class on Saturday with the squirrel, and that was the first time I ever got real instruction on how to proceed at table height. We still did a lot of trying to use body weight, use our own bodies efficiently etc, but it wasn't as focused on practitioner technique as Thai massage is. That kind of thing still feels nice and drops one into so-called "right side of brain" thinking, and it was actually weird to go from a stressful work-week straight into that. I worked out for a while after, but then the evening part of that date was pure flomp. We slept a lot (not complaining).


• Failed again to get covid vaccine. Rescheduled again. YLE did an article on what a mess the current rollout is and why.

I was supposed to handle work email today, and thus far I've done none of it. I'm hitting the point where the fear of facing tomorrow unprepared is getting worse than my reluctance, however, so I'm off to do at least a cursory scan.

Comments

[jadia]

What I do is so abstract, it's nearly miraculous that it can feel so urgent... we're deluded together, all of us in my entire megacorp.

I feel this...!

[flexagon]

Right?? Though at least yours has something to do, at some level, with flinging physical items around!

[randysmith]

It's been a reasonably long time (evolutionarily speaking) for which other people were the single most important environmental effect on an individual's survival, which makes us really attuned to what the people around us consider important. And that makes mass delusions relatively easy. Humans are weird.

[flexagon]

Yep, that's the thing... I will apparently do the abstract stuff for the people even when it's objectively just crazycakes. I helped provide input to an ex-indirect-report's repeat promo fake-appeal today, and if I succeeded in getting him promoted (which I just might have) it will be to pay back a perceived debt from 2019. Not because I think it matters that the (abstract) megacorp entity considers this person's work to fall into the "N+1" range rather than the "N" range. But because this person's writing makes me laugh, and I let him down four years ago, and he wants it.

[cordjostler]

>What I do is so abstract, it's nearly miraculous that it can feel so urgent... we're deluded together, all of us in my entire megacorp.

great thought to revisit occasionally! I'm also reminded of something a manager I had once told me in the same context - "it's amazing that anything in the world actually works, isn't it?"


Interesting video on the covid undertaking. I got my updated booster yesterday. Luckily for me (*but not the staff there) the CVS near me gets all the vaccines while the others in the area don't.

*the pharmacist told me that the scheduling system puts 1-3 people all on each time slot and the people are fighting about who goes first. For these reasons, I guess, I'm glad a lot of the populous quit caring about covid.