Layoffs suck, tired

[flexagon]

Layoffs continued all week (though one of our biggest organizations, which definitely over-hired during the pandemic, hasn't done it yet). It was pretty awful, with every day bringing news of someone else I knew who was "impacted". Friday I learned that Galahad, who saved my job a long time ago, was one of them. And on Thursday the CEO sent email to everyone, letting us know that the cuts will continue through the year so the company can focus on what's most important -- a move so outrageously bad for morale that it had to have been on purpose, probably expensively crafted by some consulting agency. Whether this is so or not, the era of Zillian valuing the employee is decidedly over. A ragequit would only be playing into their hands at this point; so I believe I'll calmly stick around for my bonus.

It was bitterly cold all week too, and I have continued to stay just barely ahead of the tsunami of things that need to be done. It's exhausting. I'm only typing this now because a social evening plan cancelled (and I'm unabashedly glad it did). I've been insisting on still having a personal life, and staying on top of a few non-urgent things, which might be terrible prioritization but at least has me feeling like an exhausted PERSON instead of an exhausted robot.

Can't stop sneezing tonight. I hope it's allergies and not a cold.

Comments

[randysmith]

Sometimes I wish I knew how some people manage to enjoy watching train wrecks; I'm just feeling grief and mourning. Oh, for what once was, and is so clearly no longer.

[flexagon]

I think of it mostly in terms of people having internal agents, some of which really enjoy watching a spectacle while eating popcorn, and some of which are more empathetic to people involved, and some of which might value or miss the actual thing that is smashing up.

It's pretty cool that the Google-that-was actually existed for a while. I even got to see it!

Still thinking of quitting in March 2025, not March 2024, but I looked up some health plans on the MA health connector page last night. I definitely am motivated to burn the fog away from the last few mysteries about quitting.