I find my lack of faith disturbing.

I feel mildly delirious. ( Too much acro? Not enough rest? )

I realize that in my mind I'm still operating from a place of scarcity. It was only last year when I couldn't find bases to work with me who were big enough, good enough, interested enough, and not in a weirdly exclusive acro-relationship with a possessive flyer. In this phenomenal summer there are at least three or four. But some of it is known to be limited, in that Scooper is going to move away soon, and he's my very best learning partner (sob!). I want desperately to believe that I can keep learning like this for the rest of my life, that this year is the start of something rather than a special gift.* But, deep down, I don't have that faith.

* There's even some supporting evidence: the fairly new existence of Nearby Circus School, the fact that Niko Douwes is coming here instead of NYC in October, the Ant. Please universe... I'm not alone in wanting to get Boston on the map, so let me believe, just enough to relax a little.

There's a contortion class in town?

Then today I was deliciously stretchy, but weak, and took it as easy as possible in class. I did the standing foot-to-hand lift briefly and went way high, but Scooper didn't quite stick it so I didn't get to feel the "bubble on the sea" illusion (rats). Honestly though, I just wanted to give and get many hugs, which I did. Feeling emotional. :-/ Now in an Epsom salt bath and more than ready to turn off my brain.

One awesome thing though. I learned there's a beginning contortion class at one of the aerial places in town, and thanks to those nascent left splits, I just barely qualify to take it. :-) If I switch handbalancing to Mondays for the next NCS session, I could be contorting in about two months. Seems worth trying! If anyone in town is reading this who thinks they could have one of the 3 splits in two months' time, I'd love to have company. I think they're asking $190 for 8 classes, which is a bit steep for stretching, but workable.

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