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Many things I have not told you, LJ... some from weeks ago, like how I went to Arisia for a couple of hours, and found a vendor selling the same earrings I bought from them at MIT about seventeen years ago. I had lost one after about five years, and took it as a lovely gift that I was able to find them again.
And how about how my traps are killing me the morning after every handstand class now? A couple of weeks ago I learned how to engage them properly, I guess, and now they are screaming with pain. YE GODS, I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE DOING THIS ALL ALONG?
I suspect it's not coincidence that I kicked up to my longest-ever handstand holdtoday yesterday in the gym. Video here; 43 seconds. The form's not so great, but all comments on it have been encouraging so far. Now that my wrist isn't hurt, 60 is probably on its way.
Kitten! I can has ocikitten? Well, this turns out to be unclear.![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
heisenbug said "sure, as long as you look into the morality of the thing". I did, and was content with "it's not obviously wrong; turns out to be complicated", and the bug is not. Our subsequent conversations have turned into quite the interesting exploration of morality: do we demand of ourselves that we do things that are net good, maximal good, or the best among obvious alternatives? Is it just as morally wrong to refrain from a good action as to take a bad action? Are we even correct to think a new kitten is more likely to be accepted by Nala than a new adult cat (the internet still seems to say yes)? And clearly our relationship allows us to do things that bother the other, anyway; where are the bounds of that, is this under the limit?
Oh yeah, and going for promotion at work. Wheeeeeee. This seems to be an actual thing that I am actually doing. Self-reviews are due on March 18. The Winemaker asked me last week how I'd feel if I didn't get it, and I said "that would be awesome" and he laughed at me. He feels my reasons for going for it -- to better support my direct reports -- is a kind of inauthentic one, but he failed to name me a reason he'd consider a good reason. I don't get what reason there would be, outside of either vanity or corporate bureaucracy reasons; it's a totally internal and arbitrary thing. But I lied to the Winemaker a bit; I don't like drama and don't want to go up for it twice, so I do hope I get it.
And how about how my traps are killing me the morning after every handstand class now? A couple of weeks ago I learned how to engage them properly, I guess, and now they are screaming with pain. YE GODS, I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE DOING THIS ALL ALONG?
I suspect it's not coincidence that I kicked up to my longest-ever handstand hold
Kitten! I can has ocikitten? Well, this turns out to be unclear.
heisenbug said "sure, as long as you look into the morality of the thing". I did, and was content with "it's not obviously wrong; turns out to be complicated", and the bug is not. Our subsequent conversations have turned into quite the interesting exploration of morality: do we demand of ourselves that we do things that are net good, maximal good, or the best among obvious alternatives? Is it just as morally wrong to refrain from a good action as to take a bad action? Are we even correct to think a new kitten is more likely to be accepted by Nala than a new adult cat (the internet still seems to say yes)? And clearly our relationship allows us to do things that bother the other, anyway; where are the bounds of that, is this under the limit? Oh yeah, and going for promotion at work. Wheeeeeee. This seems to be an actual thing that I am actually doing. Self-reviews are due on March 18. The Winemaker asked me last week how I'd feel if I didn't get it, and I said "that would be awesome" and he laughed at me. He feels my reasons for going for it -- to better support my direct reports -- is a kind of inauthentic one, but he failed to name me a reason he'd consider a good reason. I don't get what reason there would be, outside of either vanity or corporate bureaucracy reasons; it's a totally internal and arbitrary thing. But I lied to the Winemaker a bit; I don't like drama and don't want to go up for it twice, so I do hope I get it.
