Sad things happen
Jul. 7th, 2003 10:54 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
flexagonOoh... these little earthquakes... here we go again. Two sad things have happened. First, I wrote kfb a letter on Friday laying out a few things and saying we both needed to take about three giant steps back on the Soyfetus-Kfb Relationship 2.0, because boldly pushing it into places it's never gone before is maybe not for the best. I got an awfully terse response. :( Still, I don't have any idea what else I might have done that would have been better for all concerned.
Second, my dad's neighbor Mr. T has died. This guy was a friend and did many odd jobs for my dad over the last 20 years... he was a bit older and smoked a lot, and so his death can't be much of a surprise, but with every death I think my father sees more of a closing down than a cycle. I have wondered often in the last few weeks why I'm getting less email from him, whether it's a good thing or a bad thing, but I don't know. One thing about having a close relative with poor mental health: you learn detachment in a serious way. I'd better write him back though.
Despite these things, I feel all right today. The long weekend was as restful as some week-long vacations I've had, maybe in part because I was so flattened by the heat and just sat around reading. I got one or two of those days that seem to last a preternaturally long time. So... now to just see if I can make this week a productive one.
Second, my dad's neighbor Mr. T has died. This guy was a friend and did many odd jobs for my dad over the last 20 years... he was a bit older and smoked a lot, and so his death can't be much of a surprise, but with every death I think my father sees more of a closing down than a cycle. I have wondered often in the last few weeks why I'm getting less email from him, whether it's a good thing or a bad thing, but I don't know. One thing about having a close relative with poor mental health: you learn detachment in a serious way. I'd better write him back though.
Despite these things, I feel all right today. The long weekend was as restful as some week-long vacations I've had, maybe in part because I was so flattened by the heat and just sat around reading. I got one or two of those days that seem to last a preternaturally long time. So... now to just see if I can make this week a productive one.
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*hugs*
Date: 2003-07-07 08:00 am (UTC)Les bummehrs.
Date: 2003-07-07 09:51 am (UTC)I understand about needing a wall between yourself and your dad :( *Hugs*
Good luck with that productivity crap. Feel free to send some my way if you have any left over.
Thanks guys (both of you)
Date: 2003-07-07 10:51 am (UTC)My dad, that's worse. People keep dying around him, a lot of them, and only one in the last year was a suicide (attributable to him hanging around a lot of depressed vets and the like). This one was just a normal heart attack, but my dad is fragile. I wrote to him listing some of the many positive memories I have of Mr. T, and assuring him that Mrs. T doubtless appreciated his help in taking out the body (ecch). Frankly, I don't know if I ever do any good for my dad, and the emails I write him barely even sound like me. But, he says they help and I keep writing them. No worries, I'm not upset today; I'm just saying all this because I know I never posted much about him and that means you might not know the back story.