Exes, aging and handstands
Sep. 9th, 2013 10:17 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
flexagonFreaky Facebook moment... my ex posted a picture of himself in which he looks easily like he's over 50. While this is clearly from a Civil War re-enactment thing, I don't think there's makeup involved.
He's 44, for the record. I'm 36. But goddamn, we look like we have a 20-year age gap. :-/
In other news, this week I dreamed I had my press handstand. I kept pressing it up from the ground to a straddle pike position. Someone encouraged me to finish with my legs and I cheerfully said "Nah, I'm just working this part right now". Then I woke up, of course. :-(
Bleh. I keep working and having all these little firsts... first straddle press from two crash mats (don't laugh), first time jumping from kneeling into a handstand (on the wall, but I always hated that drill, so it was pretty cool to succeed), first time really feeling the shoulder push when jumping into straddle. And of course I was again the only one to hold a 90-second hs on the wall in class tonight. None of it's a press, though, or even a jump onto canes.
What sucks is that people are starting to assume I'm good at handbalancing, I assume because of partner acro. Two or three times lately I've gotten "oh, you don't have your press yet?" Um, no, I don't, and I don't want to get all embarrassed about it because that will REALLY derail me. Shame and progress don't mix so well. Sigh... I need to ready some graceful response before it happens again, or the questioner is going to get a lot more response than they expect.
He's 44, for the record. I'm 36. But goddamn, we look like we have a 20-year age gap. :-/
In other news, this week I dreamed I had my press handstand. I kept pressing it up from the ground to a straddle pike position. Someone encouraged me to finish with my legs and I cheerfully said "Nah, I'm just working this part right now". Then I woke up, of course. :-(
Bleh. I keep working and having all these little firsts... first straddle press from two crash mats (don't laugh), first time jumping from kneeling into a handstand (on the wall, but I always hated that drill, so it was pretty cool to succeed), first time really feeling the shoulder push when jumping into straddle. And of course I was again the only one to hold a 90-second hs on the wall in class tonight. None of it's a press, though, or even a jump onto canes.
What sucks is that people are starting to assume I'm good at handbalancing, I assume because of partner acro. Two or three times lately I've gotten "oh, you don't have your press yet?" Um, no, I don't, and I don't want to get all embarrassed about it because that will REALLY derail me. Shame and progress don't mix so well. Sigh... I need to ready some graceful response before it happens again, or the questioner is going to get a lot more response than they expect.
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Date: 2013-09-10 10:57 pm (UTC)It's really nice to be hearing, from non-acrobats as well as acrobats, that this kind of thing with random expectations happens to other people too. And I'm okay going through some discouragement. I just don't want to get all emotionally hung up on the discouragement, if that makes sense, and get all embarrassed / blocked. All those months when I wasn't working my hand-to-hand, ugh... it would do me no good AT ALL to get frozen up and stop working handbalancing.
I'll have to think about this "worth as a person" thing, but suspect you have a valid point there too.