And the final score is...
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flexagon25 hours of vacation payout. Yep, that about covers the watch and a few new clothes for the new job. And we now return to some version of our usual budget. :)
I just thought of an interesting topic of conversation: what's so good it scares you? Is there anything you've barely tasted, or are afraid to taste, because it might take you over?
I am afraid to live in Manhattan, for example. All that power in one place is like a freakin' drug, and as it is I can only name 4 places on earth I can be sure I could live happily. If I ever once live in Manhattan I fear I could never live anywhere else.
I might also list the S&M scene, which it's far better I not think about since I value, really value, quite a few things that are not compatible with that. And my friend who very wisely doesn't drink because his whole family is alcoholic and he knows it's in his genes. And... but enough from me, tell me what's in your head. :)
I just thought of an interesting topic of conversation: what's so good it scares you? Is there anything you've barely tasted, or are afraid to taste, because it might take you over?
I am afraid to live in Manhattan, for example. All that power in one place is like a freakin' drug, and as it is I can only name 4 places on earth I can be sure I could live happily. If I ever once live in Manhattan I fear I could never live anywhere else.
I might also list the S&M scene, which it's far better I not think about since I value, really value, quite a few things that are not compatible with that. And my friend who very wisely doesn't drink because his whole family is alcoholic and he knows it's in his genes. And... but enough from me, tell me what's in your head. :)
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Date: 2004-07-02 02:40 am (UTC)I am afraid of becoming a programmer again. When I used to program it would take over my whole life. I'd dream it, live it. Hell, I would go four hours and think it had only maybe been a 1/2 of one.
An uncle offered me once to send me a pontoon and let me make a party boat in FL. I sit and think about it, because I love the ocean. And I think that I would love it too much. My life would be too peaceful. It's odd..but it might just be too good.
Drugs, yep, scared I would be addicted in a sec. I have never even puffed a cigarette. My family is full of addictive personalities.
S&M is somewhere up there. I like bondage, up to a point, but I cannot imagine letting go and trying some of the other stuff. Whether its fear of something too good, or just fear that I would never return to being a person able to raise her children in a normal environment...I don't know.