And the final score is...

[flexagon]

25 hours of vacation payout. Yep, that about covers the watch and a few new clothes for the new job. And we now return to some version of our usual budget. :)

I just thought of an interesting topic of conversation: what's so good it scares you? Is there anything you've barely tasted, or are afraid to taste, because it might take you over?

I am afraid to live in Manhattan, for example. All that power in one place is like a freakin' drug, and as it is I can only name 4 places on earth I can be sure I could live happily. If I ever once live in Manhattan I fear I could never live anywhere else.

I might also list the S&M scene, which it's far better I not think about since I value, really value, quite a few things that are not compatible with that. And my friend who very wisely doesn't drink because his whole family is alcoholic and he knows it's in his genes. And... but enough from me, tell me what's in your head. :)

Comments

Wow

[hiddenbear.livejournal.com]

Good question!
I think there are a ton of things, but off the top of my head:
Ecstasy/Shrooms - There are other reasons why I have never tried either, but scared of how good they are is up there.
San Diego & San Fran
A bunch of Extreme Sports that look really cool. Though I guess that has more to do with me being a chicken than afraid of it taking over.

Re: Wow

[flexagon]

Mmmmhmmm. Thanks for answering. :)

I only made it out of SanFran alive because its public transportation isn't so hot. It remains on my list of places I could live, though. I demand a certain amount of that addictive quality in a place I live, now, thanks to Boston.

And, speaking of drugs: oh yeah. But for me it'd be heroin and crystal meth.

Re: Wow

[webrat.livejournal.com]

heroin is pretty hardcore, isn't it? Wouldn't you want to start at something easier first?

Re: Wow

[flexagon]

Er, no, my point is that I don't want to try it at all, because I'm scared of it. :)

I have done some of the easier / less scary stuff, but not as an intentional lead-in to the more scary.

Re: Wow

[webrat.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I'd like to try shrooms myself, but I think I heard shrooms are pretty tame compared to LSD. Not sure. Ecstasy, no clue. Don't know anything about it except that it's the latest 'rave' designer drug.

Re: Wow

[jg26.livejournal.com]

Shrooms are fun. I did them once, about 1.5 years ago. They were fun, but not scarily fun. It was just very chill. I'm hoping to do them again. You are certainly not left with cravings.

I, too, am way intimidated by ecstacy. I think I've just had my head filled w/ a lot of propaganda that says that it's one of the worst things for you on the planet. Some people (who's opinion I truly respect) say that its not that bad, and just lots of fun... so I guess I'd be willing to try it.

Re: Wow

[hiddenbear.livejournal.com]

My fear of ecstasy isn't that it is one of the worst things for me, it is that everything I've heard says that I would love it. I'm scared of loving it so much that I'd want it more and more.
I've never done any psychedelics ... I'm scared that if I saw how cool things looked and sounded and felt on them, that the world would seem dull by comparison.

Re: Wow

[jg26.livejournal.com]

I'm scared that if I saw how cool things looked and sounded and felt on them, that the world would seem dull by comparison.
The analogy I'd give is pot. Everything seems so funny when you're high. Only funny things seem funny when you're not. Catch my drift? When I was shrooming, we stared at an oriental rug for hours (it acted like a stereogram, and you could make whatever 3d object you wanted pop out of it). Life seemed no more boring the next day... you'd just have to look at something that was actually cool in order to think it was cool. Your perception was just not altered to think EVERYTHING was cool.

I don't know if this makes sense.

Re: Wow

[flexagon]

I'm not sure your intimidation is founded... ecstasy just floods your brain with serotonin, which nobody ever has a bad reaction to because serotonin is THE most basic feel-good stuff your brain makes. We have a book all about it you could read (or probably have) if you like.

That said, it's a good and honest answer to my question, so thanks. :)