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May. 3rd, 2005 07:42 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
flexagonKay, having done a bit more reading I think the shrink is wrongedy wrong wrong. I can be somewhat perfectionist or compulsive*, but nothing like the things I'm reading about, and I'm scoring really low on all the quizzes (This one is real. This one isn't, but it's still pretty funny). It was fun, for 24 hours, to have my own mental diagnosis and feel like a real part of Prozac Nation. But in the end, either you can't pin OCD on someone just because they've admitted to having two bad habits, or else pretty much everyone has it. I wonder if it's worth paying $150 to go back, do the more extensive in-office quiz and see if I can wring some useful advice out of her hide?
I've been having bizarre dreams about people I don't see very often. Last night I dreamed that not only had I had an affair with E in the past, HLM was now getting it on with V, E's partner, and I was thinking how odd, I seem to be an open relationship. The night before that I dreamed that my first lover Tomcat was prowling around town with my fourth and worst one, JD, and they were both looking for me. Ahhhh! I think that last one was brought on by a weird call that was made to my house for me where the guy didn't say who he was and just said he'd call back, and the two of them would have been on the list for people who might act like that. Actually, Tomcat probably wouldn't, that was wishful thinking because I'd like very much to talk to him about noid boi.
And I realized yesterday that I quite forgot to mention going to HLM's orchestra concert over the weekend. It was a good concert and it's always nice to see my bug in his tux. For me the high point of the whole thing was a new (2003) composition called "The Burning Music", which faded out to the incredibly appropriate patter of rain on the roof. Apparently this effect was only audible from the balcony, and it was an accident, but damn was it effective. The piece itself was good, too.
*Clerical work, for example, once I get into it, is hard to stop before it's done.
I've been having bizarre dreams about people I don't see very often. Last night I dreamed that not only had I had an affair with E in the past, HLM was now getting it on with V, E's partner, and I was thinking how odd, I seem to be an open relationship. The night before that I dreamed that my first lover Tomcat was prowling around town with my fourth and worst one, JD, and they were both looking for me. Ahhhh! I think that last one was brought on by a weird call that was made to my house for me where the guy didn't say who he was and just said he'd call back, and the two of them would have been on the list for people who might act like that. Actually, Tomcat probably wouldn't, that was wishful thinking because I'd like very much to talk to him about noid boi.
And I realized yesterday that I quite forgot to mention going to HLM's orchestra concert over the weekend. It was a good concert and it's always nice to see my bug in his tux. For me the high point of the whole thing was a new (2003) composition called "The Burning Music", which faded out to the incredibly appropriate patter of rain on the roof. Apparently this effect was only audible from the balcony, and it was an accident, but damn was it effective. The piece itself was good, too.
*Clerical work, for example, once I get into it, is hard to stop before it's done.
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Date: 2005-05-03 05:14 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2005-05-03 05:18 am (UTC)The only thing I do have to say is that you can have only one compulsive habit and still be OCD. For instance, my aunt had it. She would wash her hands compulsively when she began to get stressed and she couldn't stop. It was the OCD ritual for her. She is better.
:)
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Date: 2005-05-03 06:33 pm (UTC)I'm glad your aunt is better. Hand washing seems to be one of the more classic ones.
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Date: 2005-05-03 06:25 am (UTC)Well, no, because there are different types of bad habits, not all are repetitive or compulsive. Anyway, since I don't know what the issue is, I'll just say that whether you are OCD or not I hope you can get some useful ideas out of the shrinky-shrink for breaking those bad habits. I know there are behavioral treatments for OCD, and I don't see why those wouldn't work on not-quite-ocd-but-somewhat-repetitive-or-obsessive bad habits too. For example, I know wearing a rubber band around your wrist and snapping it when you want to break a cycle of behavior is fairly effective for mild ocd - that technique also is suggested for nail biters and smokers.
As for the dream...yuck. JD still is one of my least favorite people to think about. Nasty nasty, we donts likses him. On the other hand, I'll send Tomcat-call-Flexy vibes out into the world so that you can talk to him. I'm sure it'll work. ;-)
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Date: 2005-05-03 06:30 pm (UTC)I do not ever want to see Tomcat and JD in the same room. Of course, given that Tomcat a) despises people like that and b) has a 2nd degree black belt in jujitsu, maybe I do... yes, maybe I do. Of course he also has self-control, goddamn him. But I can fantasize. :)
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Date: 2005-05-04 06:12 am (UTC)Well, duh, because then you'd be seeing JD! :P
Of course, all this talk made me curious to see if the universe has meted out the punishment he so richly deserves...and sadly no, a google search says he's a phD candidate at Stanford. Goddammit, another 5 minutes of my life gone. Coooooooooooooome oooooooooooooooooon karma!